{"id":3360,"date":"2014-12-15T22:06:47","date_gmt":"2014-12-16T03:06:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/toulmin.org\/?p=3360"},"modified":"2014-12-16T12:17:58","modified_gmt":"2014-12-16T17:17:58","slug":"the-retrieval-system","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/toulmin.org\/?p=3360","title":{"rendered":"The Retrieval System"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Maxine Kumin and I go way back.\u00a0 She came to talk to my English class when I was in the 7th or 8th grade, probably almost 40 years ago now.\u00a0 Mostly I remember that there was something vaguely subversive about her and that my English teacher was excited and proud and nervous.<\/p>\n<p>I liked whatever it was the poet-lady read to us, and I remembered her visit.\u00a0 Years later as an undergraduate in Cambridge, Massachusetts I frequented Groliers, the poetry book store.\u00a0 When I tried out (unsuccessfully) for <i>The Advocate<\/i>, the literary magazine whose alumni included TS Eliot and e e cummings, it was a book of Maxine Kumin\u2019s poetry that I reviewed for them: her then recently-published <i>The Retrieval System<\/i>.<\/p>\n<p>At the time, I thought I understood it. \u00a0Perhaps I liked it, sensed its authenticity perhaps, but no, I really didn\u2019t get it.\u00a0 Not the way I do now.<\/p>\n<p><i>The Retrieval System<\/i> came out when Maxine Kumin (who died earlier this year at the age of 88) was about 50.\u00a0 She was reflecting on the suicide of a close friend, the growing-away of her young adult children, the memories of her deceased parents, the changes in her body, and what it was like to still be married.\u00a0 Now I get it.\u00a0 For her, animals were the retrieval system that recalled for her the people who had left her life:<\/p>\n<p>\u201cFor example,<br \/>\nthe wethered goat who runs free in pasture and stable<br \/>\nwith his flecked, agate eyes and his minus-sign pupils<br \/>\nblats in the tiny voice of my former piano teacher&#8230;\u201c<\/p>\n<p>In honor of all those whose young adult children are coming home for the holidays and whose deceased parents are not, I offer these two gems from this collection.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Changing the Children<\/strong><br \/>\nAnger does this.<br \/>\nWishing the furious wish<br \/>\nturns the son into a crow<br \/>\nthe daughter, a porcupine.<\/p>\n<p>Soon enough, no matter how<br \/>\nwe want them to be happy<br \/>\nour little loved ones, no<br \/>\nmatter how we prod them<br \/>\ninto our sun that it may<br \/>\nshine on them, they whine<br \/>\nto stand in the dry-goods store.<br \/>\nFury slams in.<br \/>\nThe willful fury befalls.<\/p>\n<p>Now the varnish-black son in a tree<br \/>\ncrow the berater, denounces the race<br \/>\nof fathers and the golden daughter<br \/>\nall arched bristle and quill<br \/>\nleaves scribbles on the tree bark<br \/>\nwriting how The Nameless One<br \/>\naccosted her in the dark.<\/p>\n<p>How put an end to this cruel spell?<br \/>\nDrop the son from the tree with a rifle.<br \/>\nIntroduce maggots under his feathers<br \/>\nto eat down to the pure bone of boy.<\/p>\n<p>In spring when the porcupine comes<br \/>\nall stealth and waddle to feed on the willows<br \/>\nstun her with one blow of the sledge<br \/>\nand the entrapped girl will fly out<br \/>\ncrying Daddy! or Danny!<br \/>\nor is it Darling?<br \/>\nand we will live all in bliss<br \/>\nfor a year and a day until<br \/>\nthe legitimate rage of parents<br \/>\nspeeds the lad off this time<br \/>\nin the uniform of a toad<br \/>\nwho spews a contagion of warts<br \/>\nwhile the girl contracts to a spider<br \/>\nforced to spin from her midseam<br \/>\nthe saliva of false repentance.<\/p>\n<p>Eventually we get them back.<br \/>\nNow they are grown up.<br \/>\nThey are much like ourselves.<br \/>\nThey wake mornings beyond cure,<br \/>\nnot a virgin among them.<br \/>\nWe are civil to one another.<br \/>\nWe stand in the kitchen<br \/>\nsIicing bread, drying spoons,<br \/>\nand tuning in to the weather.<\/p>\n<p><strong>My Father\u2019s Neckties<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Last night my color-blind chain-smoking father<br \/>\nwho has been dead for fourteen years<br \/>\nstepped up out of a basement tie shop<br \/>\ndowntown and did not recognize me.<br \/>\nThe number he was wearing was as terrible<br \/>\nas any from my girlhood, a time of<br \/>\nugly ties and acrimony; six or seven<br \/>\nblue lightning bolts outlined in yellow.<br \/>\nAlthough this was my home town it was tacky<br \/>\nand unfamiliar, it was Rabat or Gibraltar<br \/>\nDaddy smoking his habitual<br \/>\nsquare-in-the-mouth cigarette and coughing<br \/>\nashes down the lightning jags. He was<br \/>\nmy age exactly, it was wordless, a window<br \/>\nopening on an interior we both knew<br \/>\nwhere we had loved each other, keeping it quiet.<br \/>\nWhy do I wait years and years to dream this outcome?<br \/>\nMy brothers, in whose dreams he must as surely<br \/>\nturn up wearing rep ties or polka dots clumsily<br \/>\nknotted, do not speak of their encounters.<br \/>\nWhen we die, all four of us, in<br \/>\nwhatever sequence, the designs<br \/>\nwill fall off like face masks<br \/>\nand the rayon ravel from this hazy version<br \/>\nof a man who wore hard colors recklessly<br \/>\nand hid out in the foreign<br \/>\nbargain basements of his feelings.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Maxine Kumin and I go way back.\u00a0 She came to talk to my English class when I was in the 7th or 8th grade, probably almost 40 years ago now.\u00a0 Mostly I remember that there was something vaguely subversive about her and that my English teacher was excited and proud and nervous. 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